Allow me to expand on a point made during last night’s Paratopia Live. Or don’t allow me–I’m going to do it anyway it’s just whether you read it or not that’s the thing.
If I may quote somebody great… and here I’m also talking about me… On page 7 of Urgency. I write,
Take, for example, the classic instruction from Vietnamese Buddhist monk, Thich Nhat Hanh to “Do the dishes to do the dishes.” What a wonderful reminder to be in the moment. Problem is, he’s the guy in the moment saying it because that’s how guys in the moment think and you’re the one interpreting it as a reminder to be what you’re not: in the moment. For him it is a natural extension of himself to say such things. For you it creates friction because you want to be that and aren’t. The reminder reminds you to repress the frantic creature of time that you are and pay attention to the now as an exercise.
This is the unacknowledged breakdown in communication between the self-centered and one who has transcended that. When we brainiacs hear things like “Give up the search” or “Be in the now” we translate them as “Throw your hands up and quit.” That’s not what it means. Surrender isn’t an action, it’s a state. It’s the state that becomes one who understands. We treat it like it’s an action, something you have to do, but that is wrong. There is nothing to do except understand.
So what’s understanding? Understanding about what?
Understanding here means spontaneously realizing the epiphany deep down in the core of you that you will never know what you are.
“Who am I?”
That ultimate question has a very simple answer, only you can’t live to hear it. You have to die to hear it. Realizing that no base of knowledge will ever answer it–really getting why that is–affects the brain. When the brain spontaneously understands that it will not find an answer with the seeker it is projecting, it shuts off the projector and the seeker dissolves.
The brain is the core of you. The brain projects you. Want to move to the heart like Tiokasin Ghosthorse talks about? You can’t if you’re a brain person. But if you understand that, the very understanding of it dissolves the brain person and in his/her wake comes alive the heart person. In other words, there is no moving involved. You don’t migrate from brain to heart. One dissolves and the other comes alive and it is that person who knows who s/he is.
It is simple in concept, but in execution it doesn’t often go so well. In fact, even if you comprehend this, odds are you will wait for an effect and when one is not forthcoming you will disregard these words as either nonsense or something that isn’t universal–something that applies to only special people. Alternatively, you may comprehend the words and then claim to have already made that change and be a special person. Those are both still running from the fact.
Now, when one has the deep epiphany everything else flows into place. There is no action that you take because you don’t exist anymore. That brain person in charge, making decisions, grinding against the world to eek out a substantial existence? That person is now dead, remember? The heart person has come alive. Heart person has some of the same characteristics. In fact, to the outside world, heart person could cleverly disguise him/herself in the mask of the dead brain person and you’d never know what lies beneath the surface.
It’s not for you to know. It’s for you to become.
The unfortunate thing is that many people who live from the heart really want to help you transcend to that place, too, but they can’t. Some know this; some don’t. I think it hurts not helps brainiacs when they’re told things like, “Breathe this way. Meditate that way.” There will be effects to be sure, but the ultimate effect doesn’t come from those things, those things come from the ultimate effect. Anything less is… well… less.
We don’t have time for less anymore. Enough fucking around.
Sooner or later you have to stop reading words like these and ponder. Stop arguing over what some little phrase means or throwing a cynical jab. Stop saying, “Yeah, that sounds like ____” and stop–just stop, okay? That’s it. Just stop.
You have to be with yourself silently. Silently means you ask questions to no one, just ask them, without an expected answer and then you listen for the epiphany. The epiphany comes from deep within you because you want to get out of your own trap. Heart person wants out. But you have to listen with the intent to listen because if you don’t–if you teeter on the balance beam–you fall right back into brain answers. That version is the dominant you and that version wants to remain so.
If you ask in silence and have the ah-ha moment in silence, you will be silence. You will be in the now.In fact, you will be no more. Silence will have replaced you and time. And in that roaring flow of bliss (Oh, silence roars–You didn’t know?) comes a new and wonderful person.
But then I’m not telling you anything you don’t already know deep inside. In prison. I cannot teach you anything here because the mechanics, no matter how correctly-worded, get in the way. They become the thing you do to not dissolve. All I’m doing is whispering between the bars of the jail. Don’t even pay attention to me.
Don’t tell me I’m wrong.
Don’t tell me I’m right.
Do not “like” this post.
Just. Fucking. GET IT.
Then we can go exploring the mysteries.